"As kingfishers catch fire, dragonflies draw flame; / [ . . . ] Each mortal thing does one thing and the same: / Deals out that being indoors each one dwells; / Selves -- goes itself; 'myself' it speaks and spells, / Crying 'What I do is me; for that I came'." --Gerard Manley Hopkins

13 October 2006

Fall Break

Dragged home scads of paper today -- homework I'm behind on grading, exams and essays that need to be taken care of before classes begin again a week from Monday. Discouraging to look at, but I'm trying to keep remembering that what is done this week doesn't have to be done after classes are back in swing and more of it coming in.

I'm utterly exhausted. But so many good meetings with students this week that make it worthwhile.

A tiny taste during the week of letting go and not trying to keep control of my time, my work. Getting things done that had to be but without worry and frustration at interruptions and needed conversations. I hope to hold on to that and practice it again this week at home, with much to do here as well as for the job and the constant temptations there will be to laziness rather than good rest.

Oh, to learn to live in Him, to let Him live in me.


GrumpyTeacher1 said...

You have my sympathy. I did the same thing -- graded all weekend. Sometimes, for me, trusting God with everyday stresses is harder than trusting Him with the big stuff.

Cassie Marie Bundy said...

So, I definately love you a lot! :)

alaiyo said...

GT: Yeah, the big stuff seems obvious, in a way -- of course I can't handle *it* by myself. But shouldn't I be able to control the little stuff? And shouldn't God let me?!!!!

Cassie-Marie: I love you, too! When do I get to have you in class again?

GrumpyTeacher1 said...

Happy birthday!

Cindy said...

Many happy returns of the day!!!

Now, if I just had a honey pot and a balloon for you...

Much love,

alaiyo said...

Aw, thanks, you two! It's been a nice day, and you just made it even better!